It doesn't happen to me often but there are times in my life when I just can't deal with my emotions and they are so much that I just push them hard deep inside somewhere. Lately this is what I have had to do. I can't deal with the emotions of losing one of my best friends. I mean technically I know I didn't lose him, we will see each other again someday. But I just miss him so much. And I lost my job in the midst of all this as well. The other day I was sitting and just crying and then I had to be a dad, husband, and friend again, so I just got control and pushed the feelings down again and went on my day. I am not sure if this is the right thing to do or if I should just let it all out. But I know that I have four wonderful kids who need there dad and the most awesome wife who needs her husband, and I have the best friends a guy could ask for who need my friendship. And I can't go around wasting my time dealing with my emotions and feelings. I just wish this feeling of missing him would pass and I could stop pushing it back down.

I miss you Josh!

  Life has been a little bit of a roller coaster lately. But I am blessed in it all. My God is in control and I trust in His plan for my life and will stand on His word alone. One of my new Blessings is our new daughter Grace! She is so beautiful! Here are a few pictures:

I started my new job today @ Peak. All I can say is what a great company. I am so excited to be working for such an awesome company.

Oh and I love my wife very very much she is so awesome! God is Good!!!!